Channel 7 presenter Erin Holland has “broken up the highlights reel with some real talk” on her ongoing fertility battle.
The 36-year-old’s hopes of starting a family with her Australian cricketer husband Ben Cutting, 38, have been set back in recent years.
The couple learned soon after their February 2021 wedding that IVF was their “only real option to have a baby” but the process has proved challenging on several fronts.
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In a devastating update on Instagram this week, Holland detailed how they are almost back at square one nearly four years later.
“Here we go again...” she wrote with a photo from hospital.
“Breaking up the highlights reel with some real talk.
“Many losses, many failed transfers down, today was all about exploratory surgery, internal ‘renovations’ and starting testing from scratch again to try and find some answers to the soul-destroying unknown.
“What’s the missing piece of the puzzle?
“Injections, steroids, so many drugs... it’s far more emotionally and physically draining than we ever bargained for.”
Holland’s post included a picture of several vials piled up in a bathroom and footage of the couple’s husky Skylar interrupting her nap on the couch.
“My emotional support animal needs some work though,” she laughed.
More seriously, Holland also sent a message to others in the same situation.
“Infertility feels like your face is pressed up against the glass of a club you so badly want to be a part of, but no one is letting you in,” she wrote.
“To all going through it, life can be tough… but my darling, so are you. Hang in there x.”
Holland received support from high-profile friends and fans, from Channel 7 colleagues Lisa Sthalekar and Alex Hartley to Olympic gold medallist Shayna Jack and the likes of Tayla Broad, Chrishell Stause and Nadia Bartel.
Holland first opened up on the IVF process in 2022 when the first round resulted in “nothing viable”.
“As someone who went in just wanting to freeze embryos until the time was ‘right’, I’ve grappled with the confusing feelings of the loss of any ‘normality’ of this process, feeling like the universe was telling me I’m not meant to be a mother,” she said at the time.
Holland shared that she felt a mix of emotions, including the “guilt of letting Ben down, the ‘am I even ready’ thoughts, and feeling physically broken”.
“The sense of failure is overwhelming,” she said.
“The toll on the mind and body, the injections, the cost... but I’m so grateful for modern medicine - it will take a village to create this baby, let alone raise it.
“The fact that IVF is even a possibility blows my mind. I know it’s only the very beginning of this journey, and I thought about only sharing it when it was over, if ever.”
Holland has been a regular on Channel 7’s cricket coverage across men’s and women’s Big Bash and international matches.
She and Cutting both travel throughout the year presenting at and playing in cricket tournaments around the globe.
Cutting suffered what Holland described as an “unexpected bump in the road” last year when he went under the knife after months of back and nerve issues.
“The last six months I’ve dealt with numb legs, weak legs, drop foot, severe nerve pain, days where I couldn’t walk, a spinal surgery, and a ruptured plantar fascia,” he said.
“I still rehabbed my arse off and got back on the park and played some good cricket.
“This week capped it off, I went back under the knife, in an effort to play on. I am out, but I will be back.”
Cutting most recently played in the World Championship of Legends tournament in the UK.
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